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Now that I understood the term "arrangement" and read a few articles about it I understand the dynamics of what you were truly doing and what I represented for you. You were just one of those disgusting man who needs to pay girls in order to have company and sex out of of their lonely life. I didn't know there were so many people just like you, doing the same exact things. I'm in shock. It looks like a big theater were everyone is playing a role and nothing is real. Not even our friendship was. I was just living an illusion unconscious about what was going on. You pretended to be my friend/lover and manipulated me the whole time. You used me and then abandoned me, treating me like meat. I guess this is how this dangerous game works that costed me a lot psychologically, emotionally and not only. Real friends don't act this way and friendship is NOT a deal.

Honestly I would have preferred not to see all this and know any of it, staying in my idealized world. I would have been much happier I think

It's so crazy how your perception of life changes when you start to acknowledge things like this.

I hope that with this lesson of life I will be more prepared, careful and lucky in the future in meeting the right people , genuinely REAL and most importantly not fall in the same horrible trap ever again.

trying to dirty me and the past is not i believe a helpful way for you to move forward. arrangements are pay for sex. period not for months of school, advice, travel on your own to school, no sex no payments not listening for hours to opinions. guidance , long term pay for sex. as you should recall there was nosex but plenty of advice all ignored when you reazlie what friendship means and the role you play in destroying any hope of one you might begin to grow lying to friends is worse than family, somoen made a choice to be a friend it wasnt genetic im confident you will find a way to clarity it wont be easy but you can only get there in mu opion with being honest WITH YOURSELF good luck please do not respond

not nice„ i paid for the best school. you chose not to go. you chose to steal friends stop being friends when they steal. you still seem not to take responsibility for your past . I am hopeful that you will take the time to acknowledge your role in your own life.

1. We did have sex (liar)

2. The moment we didn't have sex anymore you started to detach gradually

3. Some arrangements offer scholarships and mentoring as well not only sex (liar)

4. You told me you were in Norway while you were in Paris (liar)

5. You wrote me an email telling me we would speak in October, it never happened (liar)

6. friends don't act this way

7. You've never been my friend, friends forgive.

8. You took me out of school and left me on the road with no education and no future.

9. You used me

10. You broke my heart

11. I hate you

I might have destroyed your hopes, you destroyed my life.

Not nice ??!!!! Paying for a school only for a year and then not continuing is equal of not paying at all. I wanted to continue, you didn't let me. If you are still talking about the Cartier bracelet 3 years later after the money was returned to your card and after apologizing a million times it's really not normal. I moved to London now with because I don't have the money to pay a rent and Edu is taking care of me at the moment. I want to go to school and learn interesting things but I can't. I don't want to go back to Paris because it makes me think of you even more. I can't do any intemships even though I've got opportunities. I'm stuck here with no money and can't grow in a career or in something I like. You've emotionally fucked me up, destroyed me as a person and manipulated me. It's been a year that I cry almost everyday and time doesn't make it better. I trusted you, took you as my second father without knowing you were the devil. You basically mined my life and then you say I'm not nice ???!!!