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if you want money for your rent and living you will have to detail what you have and what you need. a part time job as well by mid Feb. as you can i m sure understand, i hesitate to trust you . i know you realize the mistake you have made, but it doesnt help me . you will have to work very very hard to regain any sense of trust from me.. and the very first fuck up. me and you are history, plain and simple. no support or communiication from that moment on . zero.

you had the chance , . three times. . you were asked to help yourself and be a part of the solution instead of merely asking for money and going to school in order not to have a job. you told me i should not have helped you with money. !! i should have known better and forced you to work. I shouldnt have listened to your complaining you said. you are capable . pretty and resourceful , giving you charity is not in your long term interest. . find a job.

Resourceful in what ? I've worked this whole year long. I worked hard doing things I didn't like and even by doing it can't pay all my expenses alone and you are still not talking to me. If I get zero satisfaction out of it ( financially and emotionally ) why should I do it ?? Which gratification do I get ?

My dream would have been to go to a photography school like Parson's, icp or St.Martin and learn it in a professional way since it's my passion and it's what makes me happy. I also would have loved to try acting school during the summer or in my free time. I don't know why I've always been denied to it.