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Thank you Jeffrey, for making me feel so special. all day long during todays holiday I received nothing warm and was so sad. But the end of it was just lovely. You are positive woodoo ))))

Of course I am very frustrated with the school. I understood what were you talking about, yes it gives you diplomas, one of it is even english, but i is just a cover without great knowledge. unfortunately there is no other places which gives you full studies in 2 years (even 3, if I will wait for one more) and will start on March, and will be so cheap. I already told parents and put all my money and forces to make documents and have a ticket. well, I have no other choice, I am sorry about that. Of course I see myself studying a better place, having good teachers and finding new oportunities, but it seems that in some other life, not in this and not with me, unfortunately.

But I will not give up. all that shit I faced and facing here (God knows) fractured me, but didnt break and will not.

Probably I will be happy in so many other ways, and will be helpful, which is very important mission of my life. I decided to start some modeling, twisting my face of course, but I think I can help myself this way. I am so hollow inside that I even cant wait a moment to see something new.

All right, no time to be sad, I am young, I am something like beautiful, I am trying to learn the world in all its sides, and I became quite good in self study of Spanish btw ) and I am sure life is waiting for something to give me.

And the boy is a real present for me. He has such a big heart, he is good. It feels like I wanted to be a housewife and have a lot of children with somebody firstly in my life) and he has more western views FORTUNATELY and seems loving me )

the second light spot in my life after you, but also so much far away and not going to be near in the nearest future.

I'm sending you some pictures, my friend is a designer, I helped her to make a catalog of her clothes, look my hair was even more long than now! and the last one is him :)

and thank you for everything my dear, I really love you. and miss you.

kisses everywhere

Kind regards,
Gul'sum Osmanova

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