Re:

i would suggest you stop feeling so sorry for yourself.. you have a bright future many friends , financial security, and an unwillingness to change.. I am not a girl , so i realize my advice is tainted. however, you have done this over and over and over.. I am being the good friend , i have always been, no matter how much you protest, You don't want to see a professional. you don't want to take my , toms or the advice of others. your boyfriend was and still is what he is, no skin off of my back, I will help you , but you need to do your part.. telling me , this is all i have this is what i will do, no matter what your friends suggest„ is not in your interest. at least ask someone other than me , since you refuse my suggestions what they think, ask tom.

On Tue, Nov 23, 2010 at 3:27 PM, GMAX < > wrote:
I can’t defend myself ..I don’t know which way is up or down.
I am sorry that you feel let down by me
Re Rich Khan – I can categorically state that I would only have said for those issues to be decided between you and Delson + that decision was taken when I believe more than 2 years ago..the question and how it was handled is so obviously outside of any area of competence for me. I am waiting to hear where you want me to move my stuff to so I can do it and then I will move all my financial stuff there immediately..otherwise I’ll just move it to the guy Rich recommended to me next week – your decision
I am clearly heading down a hole..i obviously will have to deal with all my issues when I am there and see what and how and when and why and when I come out see what the pieces of my life look like then – I am sure some parts of what you say are true -
I am sorry – I don’t know what else to say.

On 11/23/10 13:29 PM, "J r jeevacation@gmail.com wrote:

I am very sorry you are feeling so low. I think you should take time to really sort yourself out. you have always followed your OWN advice„ done what you wanted , and believed that was the only way. You have focused on you , and only you. IT is not surprising that you miss that life. IT was only about you. you and you.. For years , you felt that our friendship concerned Ted, you were the only one that never came to vist, you were the only one that didn;t call, you were the only one that screamed repeatedly that you didn't want to be involved. '

you chose to ignore my friendship for near twenty years, why because you were concerned about YOU , I paid millions and millions of dollars , so that you wouldn't have problems„ Your boyfriend , was and still is a mdiwestt farmer, with no taste and or culture, a beer drinking druggy, You can make belive otherwise but not to me.. Your self focus, is destroying you.. You are wasting your personal capital , asking for help with bullshit ideas and bullshit people„ Making belive that these deals are real is again , against all of your friends advice„ but you as you have done for the past ten years, suggest no„ I want this my way, my way and my way„ Yes its is time to reflect, but your mirror should be cleaned from the haze of self delusion, as to your motications and loyalties. To hear that my people made the decisions for you when i was away , is ludicrous. You wanted nothing to do with me, I seperated everything I could, and according to rich you were leading the show.