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I am still in awe that you made me travel across the country with a newborn puppy despite the vet's warnings. You yelled at me two nights in a row because, although the staff could easily watch over the puppy, its presence somehow affects your schedule. Then in the middle of the night you threatened to drown it and next day you act surprised I took it with me. The fact you have no problem forcing me not just to leave your house but to travel this far yesterday, despite 10 reasons why it was a bad idea, simply so you spend your time with hkrs, is very upsetting. And the truth is your sudden mood swings and uncontrollable anger seriously scare me. I love you so much that I want to believe there is a way to make this relationship work again even though thinking about it rationally, it doesn't look very promising. I wanted to help you realize how out of character you have been acting since jail but you choose not to think about it and continue to look for things to blame on me instead. Not getting your 'M email' and not traveling with her is now my fault, even though I had told both you and her that she didn't need to stay for the dogs in the first place.

PS:
I prefer you don't call me on days you have ":girls" staying with you unless you need me. Thank You