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I don't know, let me think about it

I don't want you to worry. My loyalty to you is unconditional as I told you many times before. There is nothing you can do to lose it. I am on your side. I will never do anything that could hurt you or cause you problems even if the outcome is bad for me and I will always help you when you are in trouble. I bet it is a personality disorder but lucky for you I have it.

My bodyguard is on antibiotics with a flu so she can't go. I love you but I feel much safer with a 1000 miles between us at the moment. I think it would be very unhealthy to have another argument or 'discussion' at the house right now. I don't know what to do. I'll come if you promise me not to start a fight. Otherwise I just can't handle it this soon

I never questioned nor worried re your loyalty, nor - hopefully- did you mine.

This reads like a teenager arguing with her incestuous father about finally having to get a job.