Re: 7

Jeffrey, please, I just need answers regarding my apartment, money, car and whether I need to change my isa status and find work or get a green card. Other than that, please don't torture me by calling to talk. You hurt me too much and I love you too much to be a decent `friend'. I will always stand up for you in press or in court and defend you if you need it, but I can't spend time with you, call to chat or be a part of your life anymore. I wanted to have a life with you as a partner, you have to understand I had the rest of my life planned with you and I was fully invested in our relationship. That was a fantasy and we couldn't make it work. It didn't, I can't argue with that. But you know me well enough to know I am either all in or all out, I can't settle. I feel sick thinking about my future with you shattering and I don't know how I can get through it even without you attempting to act like we are just friends now. There is no way I can handle ever being just your friend so please don't torture me.

I have never been so sad, I don't want to talk to anybody and there is nothing you can do to help, but the good part is I haven't felt hungry at all in 2 days. I just want to know what I need to take care of and how to organize my life and move on

questions re practicalities. What would you like to do ? If I were you , I would apply for both the lottery and a green card. Working is healthy, no matter what. I will help , if you want . If you think it useful. I will try not to torture you. I just wired 20k dollars. last week. car ? apt? belle? sex? , sorry.whoops

I have no energy left. I am exhausted„ and going to sleep. I want you to feel good again. I will be up early.