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Must have? it was less mean when you called me a cunt. It seems you have forgotten quite a bit more. But you are right, I should have asked you to put it in writing...

I spent a good deal of time reviewing emails from 7 and 8 years ago, your acct of what happened directly contradicts email after email. i forgot that you used to sleep all day. that i had to push you to excercise. that you were told that there had to be consequences for you following what i thought was a bad path, fights with dana, jenn, etc. . leaving paris, making scenes. it is embarasssing for me

I didn't have a reason to bring it up because I would never, ever think you would renege on it. Ever! I trusted you in that regard completely.

I always interpreted your threats about things ending badly as a comment on our dating relationship.

you still choose to ignore, all the emails from before 07 that say the exact same thing . that you are acting like a spoiled child who thinks the world owes them a living, sleeping all day, not helping, not dancing? :? that brought a smile.. there is nothing even in your nasty responses. which there are many that refer to your position . nothing at all. not one. where on the other side for year after year , there are quite clearly many that have the opposite very clear view.

there are emails after emails stating , you need to be productive, contribute, helpful, you respond don't treat me like your child

Yes that's true but your idea of 'contribution' was about massages, cooking, dancing, organizing closets, arranging flowers, serving food and other activities fit for intellectually challenged people who are not capable of accomplishing anything meaningful. The activities you encouraged were only good for you, zero benefit to my personal growth or potential career. You constantly underestimated me. When I decided to go to design school, you did't let me do my assignments because you felt I should be spending that time catering to you. It wasn't worth the fights so I gave up and quit. When I started to fly and do something for my personal growth for a change, you were against it too. I refused to be discouraged by the same fights and spent time learning anyway. You still paid for it for which I thank you but it led to endless arguments and ultimately the end of our relationship.

design school , was not about design but about drafting, again , yes the things i asked you to do was to contribute to my life as opposed to simply taking without giving, you still find that odd. since you got clothes money travel, healthcare. school. etc i asked that you do something in return, again, and still , you think you should only get. you have made my point for me,

Well, we disagree. It may not have been cooking and filing your nails but I did more than anyone else you know would ever do for you in the same situation.

And I agree and have supported you for years because howver you see no none zero anything that supports your contention that I was doing this as part of an agreement

There were quite a few things that were known parts of our lives, that we never discussed in writing. I can't convince you of what you said but your interpretation of past events and emails is different from mine. While they may not confirm the existence of your promise, they certainly don't disprove it. Maybe you forgot, maybe you didn't mean it but it doesn't change the fact I lived for years under the impression that my future was safe. I can't go back 10 years and change my decisions. I don't know what to do with that information now. When I met you, I wouldn't accept any money form you, you used to sneak hundred dollar bills into my fake louis vuitton purse. As time passed, you made me believe it was ok to accept it, expect it and be able to feel safe. It was not my idea. It was very uncomfortable for me and I would never come up with such a deal or ever ask you for money. It was only after years of you making all kinds of voluntary promises and commitments that I started to believe it was ok and I could rely on your support. You made many unusual offers. You offered to buy my baby six months into our relationship and 6 years later you offered to support my next boyfriend. Do you remember that? It's probably not in any emails either.. and I understand nobody would believe it...