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Yes of course you'll do it baby I have total faith in you because your so passionate and smart!

Yes I'd like to change jobs ideally but nows not a good time with the economy so fooked, not many jobs about. I'd like to have more options in a years time maybe. Nikki works up the road from me actually yes, which works out well because we car share.

Nothing solid planned next week depends on the weather which has been good in spells recently. One thing we do have is a hospital appt. can tell you this because we are still close - we are now on and [REDACTED] because you get too many questions but I know your cool and I'll tell you if there's any news. Hey you never know you may have to give me the low down on twins someday. What else...oh yes I'm training for a charity bike ride so will try and get out next week.. I'm doing it in memory of Danni and it's 54 miles in June.

Back on the subject of work Niks hours have been cut and she losing one day a week but its across the whole dept. and it was either that or look for redundcies. times are tough right now. So what else have you been doing to keep busy other than the business plan?

The stuff about Shaun and what his mum said, I think maybe you guys just need more time together, you'd be mad to rush in to marriage again but you know that and I think your response was natural, you'd be the same at the thought of marrying anyone. Your a lovely lady Jac and have had some shit but that history I'm sure your future is rosy XXXXXXXXX

Yes you have always believed in me, never doubted me at all. Can you tell that I'm very persistent and a determined women. You know some men find me a little confronting, even intimidating. I must admit though i am a strong women, not the shy type, lol!

Thats true what you said about the economy , but i'm not scared to venture out because, well have you ever heard of a broke doctor? The medical system doesnt go into recession. Think about it babe??!!

Thats soo cool about the hun, i hope you really get your hopes and dreams this time babe

I wish you both the best of luck with that. xxxxx Thanks for sharing babe, that made me feel pretty special.Mwah!

Been getting ready to move again, same town but different part. So been packing again which really sucks but its necessary as well. Smaller place, less rent and in town more. Shaun recons i'm a city girl and like being around the middle of town better. I said yeah, closer to the shops, lol!

Hes a real country boy, loves bush camping and fore wheel driving, which i love to, i think i'm city/country, a good mix of both, what do you think??

STUFF THAT!!! I know its for a good cause babe which is such a nice thing to do. But

personallybetween you and me, fm glad thats you riding not me, rd be so sore and worn outIoll! You must be really fit hey??

Adam,ve been doing lots of thinking and i think well because i'm in a committed relationship and, well, now i find out this wonderful news about you and Nikki, i do think its time to let us go. We really do need to concentrate on our real lives, don't you think? I don't regret meeting you and i will forever treasure and remember all our times together, i will always have a special place for you in my heart. But i need to be true to Shaun and respect him and our relationship feel guilty about doing this and it gets that little bit harder all the time I need to be a honest good women to shaun as he really is a good guy, kind hearted and loves me, just the way i am. But i need to give us a proper chance and give our relationship the full attention it deserves. I hope you can understand this babe i dont want to hurt you i do love you But i cant live with loving to men, like you said if we had have lived close to each other it would have been different. But this is the way it is. I'm sorry we have to say goodbye honey but it think for all its the right thing to do, dont you. (i want you to be completely honest with me cause this is last chance to be ok)

I have to be able to concentrate on my real life here babe, you know. So i think we should end it tonight ok. xxxxxxxxxx