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I have given our conversation a lot of thought. 1. You are great and I am happy to have met you. 2. Did your husband take your money as well as your trust? 3. I think as both you and I travel a lot. I should introduce you to some interesting men, different countries, different fields of success. All nice people. This does not mean that I have lost interest in you. It is just that I believe in being a good friend. You can help me find new assistants. You have good judgement and a good eye. I am going to start four new businesses and need more help. Smart young men or women, ambitious, and willing to work hard, long hours, lots of travel. They will need to be organized and be able to deal with the aristocracy of both the business and political world. 21-25 yrs old with poise.

Hi Jeffrey, I think you've a wrong impression of me. The question about antidepressants says a lot (unless it is one for your jokes, but I doubt it as there was no sex involved :).

Your questions don't translate easily in saying I'm happy now as they are what if money from grandpa, perfect holiday etc. Anyway, you did inspire me and I contacted a school in Holland where you learn a language from 9 AM- 6PM for 5 days. I will go after my trip in Cape Town. Also, I called the Red Cross and I will participate in an event they are doing tomorrow for mothers in need and then we talk more about my trip that we've planned in May to Africa. And... next year I will find that teacher somewhere in Manhattan;) I will keep my eyes open for a new assistant, I can think of one person now, so will ask.

And last but not least I don't trust people I work with, I do trust my friends as I choose them carefully.

I understand, my thinking was that you should not eliminate any possibility to reinitiate your passions, not only your interests, but things that you say, I CANT wait, I am so excited. Sometimes depression manifests itself in strange ways, read up on it. It has little to do with being happy or not. It has to do with confusions, motivation, satisfaction, different patterns of behavior. I am a great fan of yours and am in your corner.

I just read up on it, is that how you felt after 'that year away?