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Why is speaking a problem for you?

... you are not a friend. ie you only take... 2. id prefer to remember you like i last saw you. jumping up and down swearing in the middle of the night and waking the neighbors 3. as usual you think by asking the same thing multiple times will get a different response.

So sad to hear this from you... I will never understand why you react this way. I offered to speak with you to catch up and hear from you but you have to turn it down by saying something rude and mean. Tell me what did I take from you? Why do you have to remember that only negative time when we also had many beautiful ones? I gave you my love, attentions, friendship and most important I gave you the best years of my life, my youth which is the most precious thing I could ever give to you since I'll never have it back again.

I just would like an answer to this message and my questions as I think what I wrote is very true. Psychologist will not be able to answer for you