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Now that I underst=od the term "arrangement" and read a few articles about it I und=rstand the dynamics of what you were truly doing and what I represented fo= you. You were just one of those disgusting man who needs to pay girls in =rder to have company and sex out of of their lonely life. I didn't kno= there were so many people just like you, doing the same exact things. l&tt=9;m in shock. It looks like a big theater were everyone is playing a role =nd nothing is real. Not even our friendship was. I was just living an illu=ion unconscious about what was going on. You pretended to be my friend/lov=r and manipulated me the whole time. You used me and then abandoned me, tr=acing me like meat. I guess this is how this dangerous game works that cos=ed me a lot psychologically, emotionally and not only. Real friends don L=3 act this way and friendship is NOT a deal.

Honestly I would have preferred not to see all=this and know any of it, staying in my idealized world. I would have been =uch happier I think

It's so crazy how your perception of life changes when you start to =cknowledge things like this.

I hope that with this lesson of life I will be more prepared, =areful and lucky in the future in meeting the right people , genuinely REA= and most importantly not fall in the same horrible trap ever again. =/div>

=AO

trying to dirty me and the past is not i believe a h=lpful way for you to move forward. arrangments are pay for sex= . period . not for months of school, advice= travel on your own to school, no sex no payments .4>=A0 not listening for hours to opinions. guidance , =long term pay for sex. . as you should recall there was nosex = but plenty of advice. all ignored. 40=A0 when you reazlie what friendship means. a=d the role you play in destroying any hope of one. you might b=gin to grow. lying to friends is worse than family, somo=n made a choice to be a friend it wasnt genetic. im conf=dent you will find a way to clarity. . it wont be easy. but yo= can only get there in mu opion with being honest WITH YOURSELF. . =C24, good luck . please do not respond,