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I wonder if times to times you stop just for a second, think about me and realize how much you made me suffer. I ache for you, unbearably, everyday.

You take money, lie, take more, steal, take more, lie, take more, argue, take more, lie, and then ask how much I have done TO YOU.

I gave you support and all you had to do was tell the truth to continue it. You decided not to. I gave you another chance and you decided to waste it. And the third and again you decided not to. Get real you refused to go to class in Italy, you wanted only to go to parties, driving school more parties. I did my best to try to get you to stop but you continued always with an attitude. You traveled to China to learn and all you had to do was tell the truth and not steal. And then you still refuse to accept your own role and continue to blame me and the rest of the world.

Sad to hear that the only thing you care about is your money. What serious damage did I do to you? You use the term stealing when the only thing I did was taking a film class I was interested in after the semester was already paid. I didn't take any extra money for it. You make it sound like if I robbed you or I don't know what, telling me horrendous things for years, even after I apologized.

What you did to me was much, much worse because you interrupt my studies, left me in the street and all this in the middle of my growth without caring about my future and all the psychological consequences that followed, including my attachment to you.

I cared about you more than everything and loved you more than anything I have ever seen or imagined and you hurt me greatly treating me like a pair of shoes.

Can you imagine all the great things I could have done in 3 years if you had helped me properly in the right way with consistency instead of just wanting to prove a point and criticize me the whole time? I could have lived and worked in NY, Parson school, best internships, best photographers, acting school... but for some reason you always rejected me, you never allowed me to come to NY, never allowed me to follow my passions and all the internships and jobs that I did I've always had to find them on my own with none of your help and still it was never ok for you. Instead of pushing me and do everything in your power to realize my dreams, you stopped me, pulled me back saying "this is the price you have to pay" or "you haven't finished your sentence" making me lose the 3 best years of my life from 20 to 23.

I'm tired to discuss this. It's not going anywhere anyways. It's not because I did many mistakes that allows you to destroy a life. At your age you should help people thrive, not smash them, despite all the mistakes I did. We are not at the same level and we are not competing either. I'm trying to get better. Hope you will realize one day that living a person like this is not cool. Going to sleep. Goodnight

I'm blaming you, not the rest of the world. You didn't give support and then take it away in the middle of the growth of a person. It's inhuman.