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Hello Jeffrey! Sorry for not answering so long, I'm ok. But I'm lying I'm not ok. but it's personal. Just feeling too bad inside and fed up of everything here. I'm at work all day and my skype is online here every work day from 9 to 6. but I can't talk. then usually I go home and study. Trying to do my best with marks to have scholarship. Writing to you right now with tears in my eyes but I can't cry on my workplace and mascara is too expensive to spoil. To tell the truth I feel like I'm living to take everybody's problems and wishes and nobody wants to hear me. I don't speak with my parents. From that time. My only parents who loved me all my life and each other also, doesn't do it to me and between them also anymore. it hurts. I know they love me, I'm not a 13 year child to blame them that they don't love me it's stupid. but the fact is that we are not together. Truly, when I came here, it was good. My friends missed me, my boyfriend took care of me, helped to find a job, put his shoulder when I need that. I gave him every happy moment I could. I was with him my first time. That was my second time after you. you was the other person who changed me. You have seen how afraid I was, how shy I was and you made me a woman, you made me feel like a woman. You made me believe that I'm beautiful and you like it. I remember everything and I used it. Week ago I understood that he had another girlfriend and she is good smart virgin. I know that's stupid for you and you even shouldn't read that shit I'm writing to you. But I want. Not because I don't have anyone to share with, but because it is you. It is so difficult you know, the person to whom you believed and who told you hourly how does he want to change my last name to his... Oh, whatever. I'm much stronger than he thinks. Than everybody thinks. I'm tired of being here. If I only had a chance my dream would be a flight next minute. I'm trying to make my visa, I have been consulting some representatives from embassy but nothing heard from them. Remember I bought you a letter. so I can't understand my situation clearly, maybe you can know. Jeffrey knows everything huh =) so I officially was changing my visa from J1 to B2 and I officially had rights to stay in US until I will receive an answer despite the fact that my j1 visa expired at October. Alla did the same and she got her letter in November with "yes" and then went home. I was waiting until the end of January with the words WE need more documents why u stay here until 16th of February. I went home at 11th. I didn't hear the no and didn't hear the yes. What if I could not have chance to fly away in October but I need it in November what should I do without the letter which came only in January? And I have my ticket from October, it is expired but I had it can be a document that I just became sick and couldn't go home. This is the first problem the second is court and you know about it. I don't think they can give me jl student visa its ridiculous I should give them something more serious and reasonable. I will think about it. Concerning my teeth I started them, the took off one of them the day before yesterday and it didn't hurt, I remembered the time when I was at the dentist with you and that awesome lady told me "are you sure you it will not hurt, you are with Jeffrey, I don't wanna be a dentist in jail if something wrong" hahaha. I suppose next week I will definitely have them. Thank you so much I would never put them if you didn't tell me, I was shy. they are ugly. Also, I would like to ask do you still need those tiles because as far as I understood, you need something good and special we have a lot of simple tiles which doesn't worth to be transported to NY because there are more better of them everywhere, but I found those which are handmade and was even used for restoration of registan mosque. I went to them and took some pictures they are on my disk if you need them I can send you but actually they told they can make any print you need professionally and fast. Thank you for money transfer. You sent me more than I asked, I had something to cover my daily problems and pay for everything. Took 150 from that for Embassy. I hope to pass it. I'm very nervous. I can't see the fact staying here.... If you only could pretend how much I want to ring your bell, see your smile and hear "come, come, let's take a "quick" nap )) it was not so quick but it was very warm. I hope you are good. Say hello to girls. I miss. Hell how I miss.

Take care.

the court thing is not on file.. so not a problem, you would get a n f-1 at the spanish language institute or the american language f-1's are easy especially if you are in your country, the tile samples should be the best, and you might be able to come just to bring the sample. What work are you doing.. I am sure you are upset by the boyfriend. I'm sorry it's part of growing. -- I am there for you, and yes, it was warm.

the time will go fast if you are growing, fix your body, I will fix your mind, by July you will be here..