Re:

Thank you for another sleepless night. I see you don't give a shit about my feelings. You could have at least replied to my messages... I'm not asking you so much.

but you are asking AGAIN, if you recall I told you October if you behaved, if if if if if !!!!!!!!!!, you never keep your word.!! . and then wonder why I don't feel any need to keep mine. you lie over and over and then expect to receive things as if you had kept your word. it is crazy, you make agreements, break them and say why don't I get what I'm promised. agreements especially in your case require you to keep your word when you don't there is no agreement. when you lie there is no longer any agreement. I'm not asking so much I've heard each time you want something.

yes, and when you told me he held out money so that you would have to do something to get it each month. I told you I didn't like it but you did what you had to. I would help and the only thing you had to do was NOT LIE, or STEAL, only two things neither of which you did. I am waiting to see how you do and what you have learned, I will take to you in September if you continue to work. I have offered all my advice over the years and you have ignored it. Contact me in September and tell me what you have done and prove it.

I never had a relationship with an 86-year-old man. He was just helping me to pay my rent. At that age you can't have any sex. If you want to put it that way I had more of a relationship with a 60-year-old man which is also not ordinary.

more stupidity

Since I cannot follow my dreams because it's "stupid" and can't work in finance either, If I become an escort girl, make 60k a month, be independent and pay myself a rent would you be proud? According to what you said: "you chose a job that pays little because you like it, instead of choosing a job that pays the rent." In your sentence and from what you told me previously, you seem not to care about my career path and my passions but only about how much money I make in order to pay myself a rent, regardless of what I do. This is what I understood. At the moment I might have a job that pays little but at least I'm working hard, I'm learning and I'm helping myself.

what is stupid about it? You said I needed a job that pays the rent and a living because mine is not well paid. I agree, but I haven't found any better offer.

There is just one thing I really don’t understand. Your assistants in NY don't have a job that pays the rent because they don't pay it and are taking art classes which is more of a hobby. They chose a class they enjoy. When I asked you if I could do an art or photography class which is my passion you told me it’s the prescription of failure and doing what you enjoy in life is childish and stupid. In parallel, I need to work doing things I don't like while they are taking classes they enjoy without having to pay a rent. I guess they are also living in a "make believe world". I really can't explain this total contradiction.