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Thank you for another sleepless night. I see you don*=80Qt give a shit about my feelings. You could have at least replied to m= messages... I'm not asking you so much

but you are asking AGAIN< if yo= recall i told you october if you behaved, if if if if if =!!!!!!!!!, you never keep your word.!! .=A0 and then wonder why I dont feel any need to keep mine.=A0 you lie over and over an then expect to receive thigns as if had =ept your word. it is crazy, you make a=reements , break them and say why dont i get what i m promised= agreements espec ially in your case require you =o keep your word when you dont there is no agreement.=A0 when you lie there is no loner any agreement. =C2 im not asking so much ive heard each time you want=something.

that is the pres=ription for failure. your romantic desire to only do as you en=oy is STUPID childish and will only lead to failur=. if you are unwilling to accept life as it is. but want=to live in the make believe world of what you would like it to be, y=u will end up again in a bad place. you had a relation with an=86 year old man. that was not ordinary. i respected that= you then wanted to be an actress. a photographer. =a model. a ...... a .. all silly ideal=. you complain that life is not what you want it t= be. you quit work as a waitress. so =hat you can ask for charity instead of helping yourself. .=A0 you want to be in schoool but to only take classes you like.=A0 these charactizcs are those of a 12 year old.=C2 you throw tantrums in the street. and now look to drugs =o help you focus. you chose a job that pays little =C2 because you like it. instead of choosing a job that pays the r=nt.

yes, and when you told me he held ou= money so that you would have to do something to get it each month. =C24> I told you i didnt like it but you did what you had to. I woul= help and the only thing you had to do was NOT LIE , or STEAL. =, only two things netierh of which you did. =C24e I am waiting to see how you do and what you have learned ,Q=A0 I will] tak to you in september k IF YOU CONTINUE to work .=C2* I have offered all my advice over the years and you have ignor=d it. contact me in september and tell me what you have =one. and prove it.

=ou are right but for me it's very hard to be persistent in somethi=g that I'm not passionate about or I don't love. Maybe I s=ould take Ritalin in order to focus more. I'm trying very hard rig=t now...

I never had a relationship with an 86 Year's old man= He was just helping me to pay my rent. At that age you can't have=any sex. If you want it to put it that way I had more of a relationship wi=h a 60 years old man which is also not ordinary.

more stupidity

Since I cannot follow my dreams becaus= it's "stupid" and can't work in finance e=ther, If I become an escort girl, make 60k a month, be independent and pay=myself a rent would you be proud ? According to what you said: "yo= chose a job that pays little because you like it, instead of choosing a j=b that pays the rent." In your sentence and from what you told me =reviously, you seem not to care about my career path and my passions but o=Iy about how much money I make in order to pay myself a rent, regardless o= what I do. This is what I understood. At the moment I might have a job th=t pays little but at least I'm working hard, I'm learning =nd I'm helping myself.

what is stupid about it ? You said I =eeded a job that pays a rent and a living because mine is not well paid. I=agree, but I haven't found any better offer.