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Thank you for another sleepless night. I see you don=E2 t give a shit about my feelings. You could have at least replied t= my messages... I'm not asking you so much

but you are asking AGAIN< =AO if you recall i told you october if you behaved , if if if =f if if !Hum+, you never keep your word.!! =AO. and then wonder why I dont feel any need to keep mi=e. you lie over and over an then expect to receive thigns as i= had kept your word. it is crazy, you =ake agreements , break them and say why dont i get what i m pr=mised. agreements espec eially in your case requir= you to keep your word when you dont there is no agreeme=t. when you lie there is no loner any agreement.=C2 im not asking so much ive heard each time yo= want something.

that is the p=escription for failure. your romantic desire to only do as you=enjoy is STUPID childish and will only lead to fai=ure. if you are unwilling to accept life as it is. but w=nt to live in the make believe world of what you would like it to be, =AO you will end up again in a bad place. you had a relation wi=h an 86 year old man. that was not ordinary. i respected=that. you then wanted to be an actress. a photographer.=C2 a model. a a .. all silly=ideals. you complain that life is not what you wan= it to be . you quit work as a waitress. =AO so that you can ask for charity instead of helping yourself. =AO. you want to be in sch000l but to only take classes you li=e. these charactizcs are those of a 12 year =Id. you throw tantrums in the street. and now look to dr=gs to help you focus. you chose a job that pays little=C2 because you like it. instead of choosing a job that pays=the rent.

yes, and when you told me he he=d out money so that you would have to do something to get it each month.=C2 I told you i didnt like it but you did what you had to. = would help and the only thing you had to do was NOT LIE , or STEAL.=C2 , only two things netierh of which you did.=C2 I am waiting to see how you do and what you have learned=, I willl tak to you in september k IF YOU CONTINUE to work =AO. I have offered all my advice over the years and you have =gnored it. contact me in september and tell me what you =ave done. and prove it.

You are right but for me it's very hard to be persistent in s=mething that I'm not passionate about or I don't love. May=e I should take Ritalin in order to focus more. I'm trying very ha=d right now...

I never had a relationship with an 86 Year's ol= man. He was just helping me to pay my rent. At that age you can't=have any sex. If you want it to put it that way I had more of a relationsh=p with a 60 years old man which is also not ordinary.

more stupidity

Since I cannot follow my dreams b=cause it's "stupid" and can't work in fina=ce either, If I become an escort girl, make 60k a month, be independent an= pay myself a rent would you be proud ? According to what you said: =9Cyou chose a job that pays little because you like it, instead of choosin= a job that pays the rent." In your sentence and from what you tol= me previously, you seem not to care about my career path and my passions =ut only about how much money I make in order to pay myself a rent, regardl=ss of what I do. This is what I understood. At the moment I might have a j=b that pays little but at least I'm working hard, I'm lear=ing and I'm helping myself.