Re:

you'll feel great by sept. number? the calculus of weighing the current benefits of staying or going is simple. also ariane would like to call you tomorrow morning at 9

Crying right now....you don't want to hear that.

i can handle whatever it is that you need today

Need the impossible which is for someone to explain behavior that I don't understand. I want to be able to say "ah, okay, I can sort of understand that."

don't hold back the crying, let it out. I will be there through all seven stages of the mess to follow