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your father's leaving was not your fault. mine was totally

I was screaming in the street because I was sleeping since 2 months on Giacomo's couch because you left me on my own with no place where to go. I was about to be homeless and you didn't care. I had zero money to live and was working every day as a babysitter. You wouldn't listen to me and not even speak to me when I was in the worst situation ever and in addition to all this you lied saying you weren't in Paris when I knew you were there. Screaming in the street was a consequence of your actions. It was the only way since you were not answering my messages. It's not normal but I had no other options.

I also scream with my brother when we fight, doesn't mean we don't love each other anymore.

You can't compare murdering someone with doing mistakes. It's normal when you are young. It's not a reason to leave a person.

breaking agreements and expecting no consequence is not normal. screaming in the streets is not normal. screaming on the dock is not normal.