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read our emails over and over , i have said the same thing. you tell me no no no

you did not follow my instructions . you decided to do as you pleased. over and over and over

Jeffrey, I also came because I wanted to talk to you about many things. You didn't even give me the opportunity to do it. You could have told me to see each other another day if you were busy. I'm worried about many things. I think you don't even realize the horrible situation and anxiety I'm living here in Paris. Coming to NY was also a way to escape this situation. I started school with the thought I would finish it and get a degree. You told me out of the blue that I had to work. Now I've lost all interest. I'm renting a flat and Benedetta wants to know if I will still be renting it in January if not she gives it to someone else. I know my mother isn't an example but she is worried for me. If I don't get an education I don't know what I'm going to become. All this changing makes me anxious. The fact of not knowing what I will do, where I will live... I'm becoming crazy. I've put my life and destiny in your hands trusting you 100% and now I feel so lost...

The fact that I'm not on drugs it's a miracle

I did and I lost my identity. I'm becoming sick and crazy and totally lost my mind

What do you mean by saying the same thing ? You told me I had to get an education that is why I was supposed to study for toefl. And now that I am in School YOU changed your mind again. Do you understand it's driving me crazy ?