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Is leaving tomorrow morning to South of France by car with Giacomo and Tomas and she told me to come but I have no money.

My mother is kicking me out of my room and told me she never wants to see me again and that I have to move all my stuff out because she is renting it in September and she doesn't want me at home anymore.

Why is your mother angry? Why did she say things like that? We can pay her to let you stay. Whatever money she will get from others. I will send you 2500 euro. It needs to last. You spend money without thinking. You have spent tens of thousands of euro. And you refuse to work.

shouldn't you ask yourself why your friend - me = your mother, all find your behavior difficult to deal with. And you continue. You refuse to find work. Only party, have not studied the basic math I suggested, have not kept your agreements. GET A JOB.

Thank you so much Jeffrey.... I really, really appreciate.

I don't speak to her and I've lost all form of connection. We can't have a normal conversation, we fight all the time so I prefer not to speak to her at all and stay alone in my room. We are too different and I can't deal with all her problems. I first need to solve mine and be secure myself in order to relate with my mother and with others. I know it's not easy and I admire her a lot for having me raised all by herself but at the same time I can feel she is very fragile. I keep everything inside myself because I don't want her to worry for me so I don't tell her anything and pretend that everything is always ok. I wish I could help her but I don't know how and this makes me anxious and aggressive towards her instead of being nice and kind. She said she doesn't recognize me, that I am a total stranger and doesn't want to see me at home anymore.

Where ??????????