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I'm sony for the apparent pain i have caused you...1 would remind you that when we found that life had been less than kind to you, I stood by day after day, year after year, never once, never once letting anyone tear at our friendship. I defended you endlessly, supported you without waiver, reached out to your mom and siblings, championed your strengths and camallouged the cracks. broke my friendship with Les, gave you your independence , without anyone being the wiser. and NEVER DENIED ow life conspiracy. I am sorry to have let you down..

Stop. I know. I'm hurting - I can't even defend myself because nothing I say has any weight against this story - your story. My continued defence of you and friendship means what I say is invalid. I've no idea where this will end up and am so tired of the fight and feel so small. I'm sony too for what was and is ..regardless this will be no doubt another chapter and there will be life after this - I've just arrived at a stage where I'm tied of the uncertainty and drama and just want peace. That cave in India I've been talking about for years is looking better an better...