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I had an epiphany this week when I realized that I had no one to list as my "emergency contact" on a form at the doctor's office. It was mind-boggling to me that after a 25 year marriage and a life devoted to my family that I am so alone. My sister and I haven't spoken to each other since August. I think she has a borderline personality disorder. My parents are gone and then there's just He's during the day and working on the weekend and at night on his own art. Plus he's been living with his college girlfriend for the past two and half years. has not called once in the past four months to ask how i am or if i need anything. I see now how selfish he is and I'm shocked. He came back to NY in the end of Sept. He said that since he doesn't have a job, he had to live at place in Westport, CT. How crazy is that? Especially when I've told him how mean has been to me. He just doesn't care about me, he does whatever is expedient and in his own best interest.

So I had a big pitty party after the visit to the doctor's office and there was no one out there to really give a shit.

So believe it or not, Your simple "you ok" meant a lot to me this morning.

I'm still waiting to hear how you're doing....