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I have never thought you would abandon me like this, ever.

https://finance.yahoo.com/news/former-google-career-coach-shares-192457773.html Instead of recognition of your responsibility, and acknowledgment of your wrongdoing, you continue to whine - poor me. How could you?.. to your family and me.. instead of keeping your word. Email after email saying NOW I realize that I must do somethings differently, I promise I will change, try etc. you continue on your own repeated path again and again. I only wish you well. You want to be an influencer, you must exercise.. you know that, but eat instead.. you want to be a model you should probably do as most girls do and get their noses redone for photos.. you didn't want a part time job, though temporary for fear of it becoming your life. All silly. You are smart and beautiful. You need to work.

I love you so much Jeffrey, I just want to make you happy and if there is anything I can give you or do for you please let me know. I mean it.

Ps: I am meeting with Jean Baptiste Huynh the photographer on Friday (we went at his studio together once). I think he is the perfect base to start with if I want to learn about photography specially for the use of light. He is excellent in this and I could learn a lot from him. I love his work

I'm sure you might think that photography is not a real job but it can turn into one if I do it well. At the beginning I will earn no money with it since I have to learn and I will probably need to work in a shop or something to earn some money. My question is how do I learn by assisting a photographer if I work in a shop all day? How can I earn money to pay my rent and living and in the same time learn a new skill in order to grow in that specific field? I'm not sure how I should manage this...

You didn't reply to my message

I'm booking my flight to NY

Jeffrey for now with no degree I can only get internships in good companies thanks to my contacts in order to earn, not real jobs. Everyone I ask for a paid job tell me I need to finish my degree, except for you (you don't want to hire me as well or help me find one)! All the internships/jobs good or bad I did since now I've always found them alone by myself. After asking everyone I know for a "real" paid job as you said the only options I have without a degree are: waitress, cleaner, babysitter or sales girl. I can't find any useful skills I can learn in those jobs that I haven't already learned before like being on time, humility and respect and no growth in a specific field of my interest. The only thing I see myself in is in the Art industry but you don't consider it as a "real job". I find myself completely trapped in a situation where I can't find a way out and don't see a future... Sorry if I'm writing you this but I'm panicking