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I have left Paris for California. I wish you well. I have little reason to trust anything you say. after many times promises agreements. pledges all broken. To suggest that my giving in to your crying, whining, and stupidity, was the wrong thing to do. and I should have not helped earlier is typical of your convoluted way of thinking

I have never said that. You are so used in manipulating people that you constantly have to twist the sentences your way. What I said is that you don't let a child drive alone a car that YOU gave him and let him go faster when he doesn't know how to drive just because he is having fun when you are aware he is going to crash BUT you don't kick him out of the car either. You sit next to him and you teach him how to drive by turning the steering wheel if he goes off track and pulling the break if you need to (you can't do that through a phone or by email).

What you have done after giving the car to the kid is kicking him out after he drove too fast leaving him alone with no car in the middle of the highway saying "I wish you well" knowing he is going to die hit by another car.

End of the story: the kid is obviously happy and grateful he received a car as a gift because without it he couldn't have drove until where he is now. However he cannot continue the journey stranded on a highway.

quite the contrary you tell the child, you don't know how to drive it takes time to learn the kid STEALS the car and crashes it. you forgive him, you tell him his actions have consequences, but he steals the car again, runs over some other kids, and then whines that he doesn't know how to drive.

Maybe the kid was just looking for a reaction in order to have closer guidance, not only by having someone telling him but having someone teaching him.

I have a last question. What happened about Cartier and school was 2 years ago. I apologized many times and you know how sorry I was and I am. You forgave me and we kept talking to each other. Exactly 6 months ago, in November we saw each other in Paris and everything was normal. Just after, when I started working for you started distancing yourself with no reason, recalling something that happened 2 years ago. My last question is: What did I do in November to deserve this? Is it because I told you I was sad we didn't sleep together the last time I saw you? Because it's since that moment that everything became weird. Please tell me the truth

I truly apologize for my mistakes and behavior in the last 2 years. Please tell me what I should do and I'll do it. What results should I bring? I'll do anything for it. I cannot make it through life without you. You are the only person who can guide me, I've got no one else.

some point the kid says yes I DID IT, it's painful to read

stealing the car, lying about knowing how to drive (which you also did). i have no one to blame but myself. please don't write me anymore I find

No nothing. - tantrums, crisis after crisis good bye

True. I have no excuses. The only thing I can tell you is that I'm trying to do better by learning from my mistakes in order to not repeat them. I've wasted my time by going to parties instead of being serious. Everything was confused in my mind and I didn't really know what path to take, it's very easy to get lost when you are young, especially into fake illusions. Still now, I'm trying to understand myself and who I am. I believe it takes time and it's different from person to person. Now little by little I've started to focus more. I'm starting to understand real life, what are my priorities and things that really matter. Here are some actual facts: I've started to earn some money (which I have never did before) which I believe it's already a small accomplishment. I did some babysitting and after 2 paid trial days (250 euros per day) shooting for Vogue and Dior, I've got hired by one of the best fashion photographers called to be his assistant (paid job). I'm very happy and excited to work and learn from him which is better than any photography school. I'm ready to work as long as I need to in order to build my skills and stand out in that field. I think I've achieved some results and gained some value if I compare myself 2 years ago from now. Thanks to you I had the possibility to make many interesting experiences like in China and MI in Paris. Even though I didn't get hired from them, those experiences allowed me to understand what I like and what I don't like and shaped in part the person I am. Thanks to the MI internship and my passion for photography I am now working with doing what I really like. However even though I work hard and I am paid I cannot fully support myself to pay a rent and my living in Paris. I really would like to continue through this path, I feel it's the right one but I need your help, your support and your advices because I cannot make it by myself. I promise I will use my money wisely without throwing it away into futilities like parties and holidays because I want to grow and build my skills, my career and hopefully my future self.

it's easy, go through the last two years of emails that you have sent me. search for the word "sorry". or phrase "I'm sorry,"

how much money do you need? a month

2000 : 1500 rent + 500 food, for the rest I will earn it.

Would that be ok for you?

Jeffrey, I had no idea what was reality before. You started by sending me an incredible amount of money like 10k, sometimes 5k and then when I was going to school you were sending me 4K or 3k a month which I extremely appreciated but I wasn't prepared for it, I had really no idea at that time what was the value of money ending up doing stupid things and not taking life seriously. Even if I was told, everything seemed very abstract in my mind. Now that I collapsed I know. Now that I find myself in this situation, that I've started working and earning some, I understand how hard it is and how much work there is behind and wish everyday I knew this before... I don't earn a house and the money I earn doesn't even cover the rent even though I'm working. Jeffrey, I did understand the lesson. I beg you, please forgive me. I need your help. I'm drowning, I'm not able to support myself all alone.

I apologize for everything I did. Today I've made my first invoice. I swear I'm doing my best to earn money, and learn things. I've never found myself in this situation before and it's entirely my fault. I know I've let you down so many times. How can I prove to you that I will keep my promise and continue working? Tell me what results I should bring and I'll do it

The difference is that I've never earned money before and never worked so hard.

I'm doing what you asked me to do and understand things better now but still I'm not able to support myself entirely. I'm trying

If not I will not be able to continue my journey. I wish I could continue to work in Paris and assist this amazing photographer. I'm struggling to find a house that I can rent in Paris and have to leave the place where I've been staying for more than a month that a friend landed me on June 1st. At least, I hope my written English has improved after all these messages...

I will not continue to argue for this story that happened 2 years ago. What's important is that I know my limits and what I'm capable of, I will not try to convince you to believe me if you don't. This is not the issue anyways... What I can tell you now is that I'm trying my best to do better but can't do this alone.

not true. I've asked you so many times "how are you", "What can I do for you", told you so many times that I'll do anything for you. I know it's never enough but I never receive an answer from you when I write you nice things or ask you what you would like. If I am being selfish right now it's because I'm in a difficult situation, want to prove you that I can make it and that I can keep my word. If you tell me what would YOU like or need, I'll do it, even after you told me you never loved me... Because I did.

no, that is the same amount that i gave you before, the same amount that you screamed I dont care if i spend all the money you gave me on tickets to new york. the same amount that you promised to account for but broke your promise, the same amount that most people make working full time.

you have told me the same story 3 times. each time you ask and then do as you please throw tantrums. scream. threaten. keep everyone in my house awake. i asked you to keep track of the money the last three times. you agreed. you agreed to take a part time job and then quit after two weeks. and then you scream that i should not have helped you, if i thought it was the wrong thing.

you've apologized at least 12 times I have over 20 I'm sorry, it won't happen again I PROMISE. this is just more of the same. only last week you were screaming in the street. causing distress to everyone in my house. ringing the bell incessantly. jumping up and down and yelling. i have no idea, why you think that is how girls behave. you promised to take care of your money at least three times before. i see no difference now. it is exactly the same as before

congratulations

you've asked me the same questions 10 times, swore that this time was different and then broke the agreements. each time I told you, if this continues you will lose me, it did and you did

It was not the same situation and I was not earning money. I understood in which direction I want to go but can't do it alone. If you give me one month of trial I can keep track of all my expenses and show you how motivated I am to do better

Not as good as the essay you swore you wrote but lied

Always always about you and what you need or want

I think about it, but this is the EXACT same story for at least the 5th time

Thank you for taking the time to think about it...

I will not promise you anything but will let the actions speak by themselves. I would like to make you happy without causing you distress. If you ever decide to give me another chance, I will do my best not to let you down anymore not only for you but also to prove to myself that I can make it. It took time but finally I've understood that no one else is going to do it for me if I don't. After repeated mistakes and falling, I'm learning to see life with a different point of view shaped with discipline, learning, hard work and gratitude in order to achieve my goals and grow to become a better version of myself. I've been giving it a lot of thoughts and understood what life is really about. Nothing can be achieved without discipline and hard work. I believe I'm ready to bring out the best of me in order to achieve concrete results by making a positive and meaningful change to my everyday life and apply your guidance with a serious and mature approach. I apologize one more time for my mistakes and misbehavior hoping I can move forward and never let it happen again.