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insecurity is the curse of all women„ I wouldn't worry about it„
Sigh probab=y true but unfortunate reality
I am worried not just on own insecu=ity Even though he spends all of his evenings with me (except when i t=avel) and there is zero evidence of other women anywhere, plus he is very =igh integrity there are some things that make me worry
He's on SMS =text) quite a lot. I know lots of men and even women he works with but fee=s weird for him to check so frequently and at night etc
Hes started=to care more about how he looks, laser hair removal etc.
He is rea=ly into yoga and all the female instructors flirt constantly with him. Usu=lly he doesn't notice but he's started to point out more people in class a=c
Although he's always been a follower of culture and current event= he is constantly googling himself and reading all the stupid tabloid site=.
I have no idea about money BC we have always kept totally separat= accounts but his habits haven't really changed. He buys more shoes and yo=a clothes
I have never asked him any questions about anything he do=s. He is very independent as am I.
Not sure what to think? Worried =hat talking about anything will just annoy him (i never ever have talked a=out anything since I know that's what drives him nuts about his mom) My options are really three.
1 Do nothing dont worry and try my b=st to be me and love him no matter what he does and just ignore everything=BR> 2 Ask him in a non threatening way just very frankly if he wants to=end the relationship or there is someone else he'd rather be with
3=force a conversation about the future that will make him angry but at leas= give me a sense of whether or not I should try to fix whatever I can or m=ve on and be miserable without him
lately i have been thinking a lot about steve and i.
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I'm not getting younger and i want the security of knowing i have some=ne around for the long term i look around and see a whole bunch of alone women my age or even a li=tle older and it is sad - not as sad when they have children to keep them =ompany (or maybe worse?) they sort of spent their best years with one person and then got dumpe=, usually they are super surprised by it
i have been with steve nearly 13 years worried that he will soon decide to move on and that would be devastat=ng for me since i have built my world around him
there is nothing driving a decision to stay or go in any way and as be=t i can tell things seem to be great i adore him and have immeasureable respect for him
i have never cheated on him
not sure what to do?
every year as time passes i realize that i am way past my "sell by" da=e
i have no desire to be with anyone else
but i worry that it could happen at any minute
