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Jeffrey, how are you?

I hate it=when we argue and I feel really sad that I've disappointed you. I want=d to tell you that I have thought about what you told me and I realize tha= you are right. You have always been very helpful and you always have been=a support for me, financially but above all emotionally. You told me I was=not helpful for you and I want to repair this since I care and you have al=ays been there for me. You are the most important person in my life and I =ould like to do something for you. How can I help? How can I make you happ= ? I know you think I am not serious but I am trying my best to find my wa= through life... I'm really enjoying my internship so far and I hope i= will turn into a job and that one day I will be able to be independent. l=tB9;m trying my best everyday to be serious at work. I would also like to =pologize for the things I said to you and for making you lose your patienc=. Sorry. I know I need to learn to balance my emotions.

I don't want to talk anym=re about past events... However, I want you to know that I am still suffer=ng for what I did and the regret is killing me everyday because I am aware=that our special relationship that we first had will never be the same. Th=s is what morally and emotionally affects me the most. I really hope that =ne day I will grow and hopefully make you proud. Love you. M.

i have at least ten copies of this similar email over the pa=t two years - almost word for word and usually sent a few days befor= you want something from me

If = send you these emails it's because as I told you I hate to argue with=you because it always makes me sad. You told me not to write or call you f=r a week and today the week is over. That's why I wrote you today, not=because I want something from you.

You are right. It was nasty and childish=and the first one was because I needed something from you. I'm sorry l=wrote you these messages. Let me know how I can improve my writing so that=next time maybe I can be interpreted in a better way.

Goodnight

Ps: If I I really wanted =omething from you I would act fake like almost all the people that surroun=s you and say "yes, yes, yes" to everything instead of "no,=o,no" . In the end If we argue so much it's because I I usually say=or do what I think or what I I feel even if I know you would dislike or disa=prove. I I know it's not smart but it's spontaneous. But maybe you l=ke fake people and ass lickers... Apparently ( Maybe because they cause yo= less problems I don't know ). If I tell you that I I hate to argue with=you it's because I I do hate to argue with you and if I I tell you I'm=sorry it's because I mean it and if I start to write you crazy message= like this one it's because I'm angry and I I miss you at the same t=me and I start losing my mind (and I don't care if you think I'm c=azy). When I told you I I liked my internship actually it was true. Finally ='m in a working environment where people are humans and not robots. Ma=be the fact that it feels so much like a family is what I I like the most. A=yways I wanted to thank you so so much because without you and your help l=would probably never be here, doing this wonderful experience. Thank you, = am extremely grateful ( even if you think I'm not)