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Do it y=urself
Jeffrey I think you hate =e... I have the impression you are trying to cut me out of your life. You =ell me you are sick but then you spend the day with or I don't k=ow who. It's been almost a week you are in Paris and=you didn't even tell me you were coming. The fact that you are in Euro=e and you don't want to see me makes me believe that I'm not so im=ortant for you since it's more than 6months that we don't see=each other... I would prefer for you to be honest with me instead of makin= up excuses, same as when I wanted to come to NY. I know you have a girlfr=end and you don't want her to know about me but I don't understand=why, since we are not together or even seeing each other. I thought we wer= friends...?
I'm a 100% grateful everyday for what I =ave and what you give me, thank you. I don't know how I would mak= it without you and your support... What I know is that I will a=ways defend you regardless of what people say and will always be by your s=de if you have any problem. I really have a lot of respect and affection f=r you this is why seeing this whole situation and the way you are distanci=g yourself from me makes me extremely sad...
Today, I foun= a job despite the fact that I know that none of your girls in NY is worki=g. I know you are trying to help me (thank you) but I don't under=tand this contradiction. I hope that one day I will be able to make m= way through life. I'm sure I have a lot of defects and I understand l=have to grow and that I have a lot to learn about how things really w=rk but I don't see myself as horrible as you say I am.
Maybe=C2 you will not like this message and will take it as a whining but cont=ary I believe that venting my pain is healthier than suppress it with=drugs. I prefer to be honest and clear with you instead of pretending=of being ok when I'm not. By writing you this message I'm leaving =side my pride since I believe a relationship with no communication is fake=and I don't want to be fake with you.
Love you...
Can I please ask Lesley to book me a flight to Paris o= the 1st ? Valentino invited me to a big event on the 2nd and I also=/span> have to go at for the fitting
Me ? Nothing. What di karyna, █ █, █ did of so extrao=dinary in the past 3 months ?? I'm just curious...
Maybe if you t=ll me what they do I can learn from them and try to improve myself.=C2
can you tell=me why i should be proud of what you have done in the past three months.=C2 since monaco.?