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I never understood why we cannot communicate like normal people do and why I cannot talk to you on the phone. I would have really appreciated to send you my list expenses if in return I had feedbacks of you and we could discuss on a regular basis ( not only about my statement and money ) but about other things in life so that I could learn and grow as a person. Unfortunately this was not the case since there was zero communication from your side (even when I was sending you my statement) I had no idea if what I was doing was right or wrong I tried to be careful. The fact of not hearing from you and having to send you just my statement would make me really upset because as I told you yesterday I felt it was the only tie that was left between us since you knew nothing about me and again my emotions took control over everything else.

How can I do things for you if you don't want to see me or even speak to me on the phone ?? HOW ? Please tell me. I told you this summer I would have liked to go to a massage school so I could learn to give you massage but you didn't say anything about it.

if i had feedback it is always about what you can get. . so i could learn. ( get ) grow get etc

It's not true. I tried to do so many things for you but you never gave me the opportunity to do it.