Re: sending again my schedule

Mum, I could not open the schedule that you sent me. Please re send it. How are you feeling? I love you

Gx

I am back from hospital and of course very disappointed as you can imagine since I did not respond to any of the treatments they offered or performed on me. Neither drugs at high doses under control nor 3 consecutive electric shock would put my old heart under control. The only hope left for me now of any kind of treatment as yet untried, is to go and seek a second opinion in the Nancy hospital department of my nephew Jean-Marie Polu, where he holds the chair of cardio-respiratory diseases and where the Professor of cardiology is a young man whom we took as a student in our home at Headington Hill Hall, over twenty years ago, to improve his English. He told Jean-Marie he would be delighted to see if he could help in any way.

Between these two pundits, a spark might come to light, who knows? Jean-Marie thinks there may be some other reasons why I get short of breath. Any way, if everything else fails, the worse that can happen is that I will have to learn to live with a defective heart and drugs galore for the rest of my life and of course completely alter my life style. There are worse fates than that and time enough to see how everything develops but I am determined first to do all in my power to try and get better and then resigned to change my life style.

In hospital, they wake you up at the crack of dawn and put you to bed at 7pm and I am therefore feeling quite tired, notwithstanding the bashing of my heart, the burning of my skin through the electric shocks and the catheter they put in my arm which is till bothering me although it is no longer there.

Thank you for your constant and generous support, God knows where I would be if it were not for your care of me. As I was so bored in hospital and did want to do something useful for my soul, I read John Roth and Carol Rittner's book on Pius the XII which I read from cover to cover. I also read some 10 back issues of the TLS which I had not managed to read since July 2001! If find the TLS most compulsive reading. Not only is it written in excellent English with a great vocabulary (a number of words are new to me and I need a dictionary at hand). They are mostly descriptive words, rather far fetched or possibly excellent English, but I have just not come across them in my everyday type of reading. The book reviews do teach you a great deal about a variety of subjects and tempt you to buy the books in question although I would need another life to do justice to my lack of general knowledge.

So, as you can see, I was not completely idle although I slept a good deal of the time. I kept wondering what do people do with their time, thinking there was so much time to spend in one day when one was not truly busy!

Lots of love and keep sending me emails, even short ones so that I can place you on our planet!

Your loving Maman