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Hey, Sony I was in such a bummed out mood last night. The load of everything around me has been so intense and seems to just get bigger. Yesterday was super sad losing Manhattan. :( It's still soon for Jen and that causes me stress, I have the awful insanity of Kayla, how that is going to effect Stella terrifies be every minute, and now I have my sister living with me.

I don't think I'm being very fair to you as well and it is weighing me down. I want to have time for you but at the end of each day I just want to pass out. And then I don't sleep. It's a wonderful routine. ;)

We know how much we like each other. But I am just not able to do a real relationship right now. Would you be up for going back a step to just dating? We would see each other on weekends when we can and focus it on fun stuff. Bringing you into my drama can't be fun for you and it isn't healthy for me either. I could tell you were sad that you couldn't join me in Boulder, but honestly I don't think I could handle staying relaxed with you in town.

Thoughts? xoxo

I hope you still come to LA. I will dedicate Sunday to you so that we have some quality time together. :)

K

Thoughts? I just don't think I'd EVER be a priority because he hasn't shown any ability to get over history or find a way to emotionally cope with the future... Grandfathers funeral, whole family around today and he sends me this...

ok, good news now i have you back again,full time, come to ranch you;;11 feel better, come tonihgt if youwant

Hey. I'm really sorry. I wish things were simpler. There will be a car for you at the airport if you did take the flight. It will take you wherever you want to go. I'm here until Wednesday if you'd like to talk. K