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yes, ashamed, you pleaded and convinced me to abort OUR child. all the time promising, we will get married, but at the right time, "i want to do it right". I loved and still love you, and chose not to even question the possibility that you were not truthful. I only wanted to start a real life with you. My visa situation was not my own doing, it was a life problem that i hoped we would work on as a couple to solve. instead you decided, you could not really help, and focused on the self centered fact of not being able to relax after you came home from trying to make more money, surrounded by others that didn't care for you as much as i. I would hope you would have taken responsibility for your actions. but at least until now, you have not.