Re:

Unfortunately I do not have time to regurgitate my last 10 e mails. i have work to do, . i had to spend the day yesterday doing what you were supposed to do. i story, going through dead flowers dead food, cabinets of smellly cookies , old cheese. , I need time to myself. two to three weeks at a minimum. I love you,

And WHY did you do that yesterday after I left.. with and instead of doing it with me? That is a perfect example. You spend time with them, show them and explain what you want, when and how. Think about that. Why didn't you go to whole foods with me..and home depot the last time? Why didn't you 'go through the house' with me? You make things as difficult as you can for me; expect me to read your mind at every moment, guess what and when you might want to eat today, not bother you by asking questions except between 6.30AM- 7am and when I can't do that, you feel it is right to complain. With other people you "spend the day going through cabinets and flowers" and you are surprised to get a different result. I still don't have any explanation re you changing trip as soon as I left despite our agreement she would leave yesterday.

I have decided to not fight with you. you refuse to do things after I spend alarge amount of time explaining in excruciating detail the history, reasons, culture, i showed you the apple experiment, so that you might understand the underlying mechanism of spoilage. I ve done it over and over and over and over again with you.., I tell you the proportions of flowers . golden mean 2;3 I ask that they not be dead,, I tell you about eggs, I chose to ignore the meal you made I didn;t want a problem,So I find myself living a life of merely accepting the absence of quality that you choose not to aspire to. , spoiled apples and why, i tell you about fresh breads, i tell you about cleanliness, and dog shit on the floor, i tell you that you need to plan in advance for food, why ask what i would like for breakfast in the nesxt ten minutes when there is no food to cook. You send jansuch , . shopping , and leave it up to them, I tell you about, meats, you give me janushcs bacon, rotten stinky food in the fridge, half of a bread that has laid there for a week. I specifically asked jinky not to throw it away , to see how green it would have to get, before you did anything about it. I have not had an argument with you over anything have gone through with you multiple times, I love you, think about how many times Ive tried to explain to you about the basics of cooking.., and after that , except for the soups which have been great, I spent time going through a breakfast book,, three weeks ago.. for what ? I love you,, I understand that not holding you to your word is my fault. you suggest helpers and then ignore them. , Re i needed help. ,