Re: I'M SO SORRY!

I accept your apology........ you should know however,
that I firmly believe that you have CHOSEN... ,yes
,CHOSEN ..to return, true kindness, valuable
guidance, and heartfelt generosity, with negligent
and gross disrespect... You CHOSE not to use a
condom....(with a male model,you just met, no-less) ,,
that's ALL I asked..,can you imagine ,,after making
your dream trip possible, no other requests!!, I
just asked for you to please keep US
safe-!!!!!!!!!!!!!! danars07@aol.com wrote:

Jeffrey,
I'm so sorry!!!! i love you so much and i would
do anything to un-do
what i did. This is the worst feeling i've ever
felt...and i'm not sure
i know how to explain everything i'm feeling but
that doesnt matter.
what matters is that i hurt you... i didn't follow
your rules, i didnt
tell you the day i found out, and i told julian
before you. i was never
a rule-breaker and especially your rules... jeffrey
i look up to you
and believe in you and trust you and respect you and
love you so much.
i care about what you say and what you think. when
you took the time to
speak to me that day in the office...i did
listen....i knew what i
needed to do and then once i got there i became
stupid. i could sit
here and sit here and think about why i did that but
my only answer is
that i was stupid.
why did i tell julian before you? i needed a time to
be with you
because i wanted to speak to you in person and
alone... i also thought
you were on your way to the island. i was scared,
embarassed,
disappointed, nervous, and clueless. you were the
first person i wanted
and needed to talk to but i couldn't find the words
to tell you. i knew
that you would be very disappointed in me and upset
with me and to me
that is the worst.i had an overload of
thoughts,emotions, and
feelings...i was in histerics and i thought it would
be better to speak
to you when i was calm but i couldn't even do that
tonight.
i will regret this everyday of the rest of my life.
i lost your trust,
possibly your love and your friendship and those
three things matter
the most to me. i know sorry doesnt fix anything
but i need to tell
you again....I'M SORRY!!! i love you,JE.
dana

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